ok, this sux alright!
B I G time!!!!
damn it...what happened to this blogger?!!
i cant seem to change the skin properly
wad the hell!...
even worst, i did smthg that change the blogger format
ARGH!!!!!
see la now...
its a pathetic skin that i have!
Oh God, enlighten me puh-leeesseee!!

OK
going to work this morning was real scary
very scary
lucky ah today i didnt get posted to panorail again
otherwise i'd have peed in my pants
LOL

i dont know whats up w Nick
he hit me twice today
it was hard ok!
he accidently kicked me once
he accidently slapped my face till my specs fell off!
what the hell....
even worst, Mindy said
"Nicholas is always like that. He always hit ppl. He hit me at the chin before"
i was like "Oh Ok. So i have to be wary of him"
or i'll keep a distant away from him
its even more irritating when he laughs at me after hitting me n keep on saying
"Why do i keep on hitting u ah today"
-_-"...like i have the ans

there was a lost boy today
a sick old granny
n many weird cases
the tour guides there are friendly
too super friendly
thats because they call us sayang
doesnt matter male or female guides
the moment they turn up, they'll go
"Sayang, 30 ppl bla bla bla....."
i think i have to get used to it cos my other colleagues seem to be comfortable w it alr
hahaha

freaking tired la



PS: Dian u better be prepared on the 1st. dont be too happy cos its worst than u think. HAHA.

oh man...so sad. so disappointed of myself
today at work, i made numerous mistakes n yet i kept mum
mistakes concerning cash....
gawd! what was i thinking??!
i was too tired my lil brain wasnt functioning well
i couldnt even calculate simple maths jus now
keep on adding wrongly
damn! eargh. sad sad sad. disappointed disappointed disappointed
with MYSELF! argh

i'm just too sad n disappointed to say abt the fun things i did n had today
so sad =(
i hope those mistakes wont be repeated again.
i really do
now i'm scared to go to work tmr
argh! Help!!!
=((

okay...
so i am a double happy goober!
yay!
cos today -in fact yesterday- i got a new hp!
weee!~
n today i have already managed to get a gheist of it. wohoo!~

plus, i went back to WDL NPCC Unit today! wee!~
sooo happy!
so happy to see Huda, Nisa, Azuin ,Norsha n Shunli back!
so so so so happy!
it was meant to be a surprise visit ah
LOL
somebody smacked the forehead hard upon seeing me.
i could see n hear clearly who it was from a distant.
hahaCks....surprise surprise! LOL

we had smthg in mind to discuss thats why we were there
n my O my....
i have absolutely no comments on the current sec1s =_="

i'm so happy
we did some catching up among ourselves
had fun working w Johnnie JonJon, Zulaiha n MeiZhen
u guys were great! awesome..
hope u learnt smthg new today
hahaCks

n i did smthg new today
call it lame
i was bluetooth-ing away w Azuin, Nisa n Norsha's hp
cos its like practically all 3 of em got a new phone
Azuin had an LG Choc
Norsha a N5300
n Nisa a SE w600i or w 300i or whatever u call it( the walkman one)
LOL

so tmr is back to work!
No!!!
i wanna go to tmr' NPCC promotion ceremony!
wth....
sigh...sad la

i was accused of stealing something

but yet, i don't feel guilty - not at all

i stole smthg, which i will never return

i granted him his Xmas wish alr
well, with an exception that it was an hour earlier LOL


yesterday's work was super duper over tiring
u people dont know how to sit at home n just rest since its a Public holiday n its Xmas??
yesterday's crowd was abnormal
floods n floods of ppl were there
ho wells....
but then again, without em'
my work will be plain boring




haiz....why does it rain these days?
i cant seem to go out!!
i miss going out
wonder how my gfs are....









we are ONE
wee!~
~Forever&Ever,babe~

whew!...
last night got home at 0200hrs
whole family taunt at ECP right after dinner at Han River
wa, i love Japanese food. Sushi!!! yum yum...
*slurps*
what an indulgence
a great fill calls for a tedious excercise
*sigh*...the worst part of it is,
i'm lazy to work it out! argh

last night @ ECP, we 4 cuz just talked the night away- sitting on d wavebreaker
peace, calm- thats what we're looking for
we talked abt life now as it is n d future to come
lied on d rocks n faced the starless sky
looked for d moon, but it was nowhere in sight
just like the owner =(

n the funniest part was
i saw this young man fishing at night
he seems familar
very familiar
1st time look, i thought i was Syam
but when he talked to cuz, it didnt sound like Syam
looked hard again, tengku mushadad???
why would he fish? no training ar?
told cuz but they themselves not sure
Suf was trying to be brave n approached tengku mushadad

Suf: Abg, abg Tengku Mushadad eh?
TM: Ye saya...
Suf: Oh bang, saya betul2 minat abg ar...*shakes hand*
TM: Oh? Ye ke? Skola mana?
then ya da ya da.....

the thing is, Suf doesnt knowa single shit abt this Tengku Mushadad
he just wanna befriend this star -_-"...
after the whole thing, it was a waste we didnt take a pic with him *sigh*

so today...
going out to wedding invitations
oh no! eat again???
Noo0oo0oo...!

i woke up this morning feeling very disheartened
why in de world did i wake up?
how come i'm living to this day?

i woke up this morning with a very heavy heart
it feels as if i've been punched real hard in the heart
my heart feels dented, very dented
not yet smashed
my left chest feels heavy
only my left
i walk around with my left side of the body downwards

i woke up this morning with thousands of regrets
why did i live yesterday?
why did i live just to commit mistakes?
or why did i live yesterday just to be mocked at?

is work taking its effect on me?
no. i dont think so. absolutely NOT
cos i'm enjoying a hell of a time there

then what? izzit this new thing thats happening?
never was i deeply engrossed in this matter
but now that i do, n its the first time i'm facing it for real n seriously,
it doesnt seem to turn out nice, smooth n beautiful
what the hell...

let it go? loser.
i never admit defeat easily
life has been meaningful with this thing
but its beginning to hurt
if i let it go, it hurts even worst
so what now? it hurts in both ways

i wish to end my life now
can i?
pleeaasseee....

today was a bit slow
maybe cos i was posted to LL
with Fadzillah
an intern from SHATEC
*reality check here, he's a guy ok*

he himself was tired
tired of what? yest u off what...
LOL
he couldnt sleep la
his baby cuz cried all night long
haha pity u la

amazing guy la he
interesting education life story
pity him ah
he was in d course that i've always wanted to be in
but somehow, he dropped out
wasted la! haiZz...

nothing much happened today
but still, ppl are confused w my name!
Dian was mistaken as Nurul by Wahid
n Tahir called her Nadiah
HO!HO!HO! Nurul Nadiah rules the place!
hahaCks, nonsense... -_-"

yay, saw Pak Cik Mus today
i was so so happy that he could still remember me n my name!
i just feel so appreciated =)) thank God
talked awhile n continued work

was told by OM that me n Dian have to work on 25th Dec
happy ah but den...
25th Dec??? isnt that Christmas?!
Oh mann....
nvm la, at least i get to meet Santa haha
wonder who this year's santa will be =))

Fadzil made me his bait
not fair k!
u want to get smthg, say it for urself la
make me paisey onie...
LOL

today half day only
Dian has a date w Sab so ended early
my Lee?
got meeting then going breakdancing
good for him his taking charge of his own life

k ah....
still feeling tired
eh,my PrisonBreak still havent watch!
aiyah, tmr also maybe must sent granny to her friends' hse before she goes for haj









keep a part of me in everything u do

okay, today is super duper tiring
decided to extend working hourse to 1600hrs
but hey, i'm not complaining!
it was super duper fun ok todae

Lets see what i did today.....
hmm..........

ok, we came early-abt 15 mins earlier
so we were asked to wait till 9 before reporting to CR
was glad to see Tahir
Aziz designated our working places
i was with him till lunch
Dian at LL

MS very very chaotic
buay tahan ah
some of the visitors, as well as guides, were being fussy
n its always the same type of ppl getting onto our nerves
one stupid question i encountered today
Man: Excuse me Miss. How far is the technology here?
Me: *HuH?* Oh sorry Sir. I'm not pretty sure abt it.

i was like "What the hell has technology got to do with an animal oriented place???!"
i told Aziz who was half asleep in the CR
he laughed aloud like no one's business

Aziz: Lain kali ckp dgn dier (Next time say to him) "Very far Sir. Until outer space. U want to know more ask NASA"
LOL
well, thats part of my work ah

the interesting part of today was, everyone went blur abt my name
Aziz asked my name n i said Nadiah.
Kak Leha knew by default n she calls me Nurul.
so when Kak Leha calls to Aziz over the walkie for Nurul to be posted to WA
Aziz was dumbstruck
"Nurul? Who?"
i heard but i kept mum, giggling away
it was only after a few mins, that they found out that both the name belongs to the same person.
Hahaha =P

Along the way to WA,
i got to drive the panorail!!
Wee!~
hahaCks, so happy!
i was nervous yet excited
thanks to Wahid's hospitality that he was willing to teach me
otherwise, i'll have to wait for d BBDC fella who is currently on a month leave
T_T"...

After lunch, we were being lucky
Both me n Dian were posted to the same place
So we're not lonely!
Chitty chatty us
played, fooled, laughed
FUN la!
i'm enjoying it
HAHA

After work, when to Jali's place
wanted to borrow PrisonBreak season one
mann, why in d world do guys love to keep long hair?
like what Alex would always comment abt his hair,
Can keep a livestock in it
its so thick, bushy n long
eargh
was surprised to know that he's still not working -_-"...

on the way home, in d bus, mom called
stupid phone!
how come cannot hear??!!
i couldnt hear Mom n Mom couldnt hear me
wad de hell...

reached home, Mom asked hwtas wrong w phone
i said dont know
Bro was being a busybody, tryong to be a wet blanket
he said i purposely make it spoilt so i can get new one
Shuddup la...

went to take a bath
then Mom asked abt wahid n whether i've told him that i'm Mom daughter
i said havent n asked why
aiyah, this weekend got jemputan
n she needs to pass the invitation letter to his family
i as like oh-oh, do i really have to tell?
aiyah, heck care la

so so tired la....
can i sleep now??









when i'm disappointed,
i just keep mum
too disapoointed to say anything

wee!~
i'm a happy goober!....
started to train for work today
n it was so so soOo F-U-N!!!
the people there never fail to make me laugh with their antics
it has always and is and will be fun working with them
Aziz was somebody new i met this time round
he's cool la
simply too cool
he's hilarious ah
i'm just soo happy to be back there again LOL
WEEE!~~

me n Dian had this stupid idea of having misleading nametags
we planned to have our name tag printed as our first name but
colleagues call us by our 2nd name
reason??
so that when customers complain, they complain the person with the first name
n the person who receive the complain will find it difficult to find this person with the first name we're using
LOL clever huh??
got it? NO? nvm
only nerds do such stuffs

some other bad n shocking stuffs happened too
nick said ignatius doing a concert tmr
a Tuba performence
i was like "wadever de hell for?! u got no otherplace/thing to go/do arh?"
C'mon ah ignatius...i know its a trick for u to get in JBP to work
maybe u'll get
Plus, Vijay also said someone from WDL called him a few days back
to ask for work
me n Dian went "Oh-Oh....who could it be seh?"
aiyah heck care la...
why dwell on the bad when u have the good to look upon??
LOL hahas

soon after that, met up w Lee to go to e movies
he had a pair of free tix from his Mom
wad de hell....
i waited for him quite long
very long la i shud say
cos i like practically miss two trains
n after intense waiting, i only came to know
he was sitting right behind my back all those while!
gah...nice trick Lee. i loike
n i was even more excited to see him wear the shirt that i also have!!
hahaCks~ so cool la us
we went on holiday to the same place at the same period
bought the same stuffs
n all these happened by coincidence okay
sooo many things happen by coincident
too much of a coincident already
right Lee??
LOL
maybe its fated
but whatever has happened,
i'm grateful it happened

Eragon was such a nice story
it was sad
he lost his dear ones due to his own negligence act
but he's brave
"one part of us is brave, another 3 part of us are fools"
how true















if there is one thing i wouldnt forgive you,
it would be for calling me "that"
but nevermind
now i choose to move on
n i am moving on
~peace~

OK this is freaking wasted
i just opened up my mail n read e one syahir sent
a xmas paty-cum-reunion
sounds so fun!!
dude i miss those SLC hunks n babes
but what to do
we were supposed to gather @ Bishan MRT at 1700hrs
excuse me, time check here
its already 1729hrs
wasred sia!
see la! go holiday sumore...
dunno how to clear mail
haixx...
wasted la...miss those hunks n chicks aLOTs!!!

yay!
i'm finally back from my holiday!
it ended off bad ah, to me that is
i HATE KL ok!
i WONT ever again step foot there
eargh
i choose not to talk abt my holiday today in this entry
but rather some other important stuffs

aites, i didnt bring my hp on my holiday
so when i got back, there were numerous msges
some were there just to pester me
some asking abt my well-being
well, thanks u guys
i'm fine

on the contrary,
i received 2 bad news
lets begin w the worst

tarmimie's Mom passed away
innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun...
a small friend who lived across my street n
whom i know since my 1st day off sec sch
sad =((
much more sad when he lost his Mom on the day his Mom gave birth to him
thats right on his birthday, 15 Dec 2006
*sobsob*

2nd bad news
Oska told me the vacancy at SG Ngee Ann City is almost full
n there's a very slim chance i'm gonna get in
durgh! pls la...
izzit that hard to get employed??
dammit..
i thought once the N level results are out today,
there's a chance for me
but wt the hell...

nvm
Dian called an hour ago
to tell me that JBP OM just called!
n he's getting us back to train to work at the panorail
woots!~
panorail.....haha
how many 16 year olds can get a job which requires them to drive a panorail???
huh-huh??!! Tell me la!
LOL

n yes!
Dad just got back from shop
he checked the mail box n
praises to God,
i received the EAGLES Award Bursary
woots!~
i'm just motivated
to work harder n harder each time i get rewarded
n only nerds like me deserve such things

for u nombskulls who doesnt know whats EAGLES,
its Edusave Awards for Good Leadership and Service



thanks for calling me that

i dont have a car n neither do i know who the hell is KARUZZAMAN!!!!
n i dont owe anybody anything!
so pls stop calling me!
Grrr....asreholers....
this is the umpteenth time they called
n asking me e same old question

just got back from cwp
went to Stereo to get a pair or earphones
but to my dismay
i bought the wrong one
n i realised it only when i got home
Dammit! i'll b out soon to get an extension wire





WHOA!!!
my 42 yr old Dad is out having a takraw match????
i just found out when i gt home just now
n asked sis abt Dad
OMG...no wonder i found a new pair of high-cut sneakers last night
i think he'sbeen inspired by the SEA Games @ Doha
ho wells Dad,
go break a leg!!!!


how i wish i can watch him in action...

i guess yeasterday's riding in the rain
had its side effects

16 years of living
never once did i heard/see Dad vomitting
it was soOOo bad
scary!
it was lil bro who infected a virus a few days back
n vomitted 11 times!
my gawd...
then yesterday morning, at 0245hrs
I, vomitted too
blueks...i dont know why
n i feel SOoOO cold
fever? maybe...
argh, its so bad
how to go Genting-KL like this?? lol

Lee is now in JB
buying a laptop [???]
whatever it is, good for him lo..
his hse full of desktops n laptops
lol
& n &...
he got himself a new hp too!
ahaCks, nvm i'll be getting mine after this hols

O yah!!
i have to buy an earpiece =_="
before i go for this trip
LOL

OKOK, i feel so giddy now
i gtg
start packing my stuffs edi
wee!~
pray for my fast recovery aites...

Brrr....

its cold in here

i just finished washing up

after getting drenched in the rain

it was AWESOME dude...

i was out with Dad to Toa Payoh to get him a new pair of specs

i thought only kids like me who damage their stuffs

but who guessed Dad was just like any one of us

haha

he meddled with his specs n somehow or the other,

it just broke into two separate pieces!

awesome magic Dad lol

i was dumbstruck when he said he wants an Oakley specs

i was like "WTH...all these while, i've been the one wanting that!"

but nvm, Dad has a point anyway...

i mean i change specs every year

while this is d 1st time he change after 6 years

so once in a while, he should pamper himself

headed to cwp first

it was his friend who told him to "might as well get an Oakley specs"

so we were at Capitol

browsing thru every Oakley specs there was at the showcase

both me n Dad got attracted to a silvery white one

but the sales person said thats an old model

but i loike...lol

so he introduced another pair, the latest model

nicee! the colour n design that is

the frame was err.....

same like the one Dad broke

but he likes it tho

*shrugs*

after bout half an hour,

Dad decided to go Tao Payoh first n check out the Oakley models there

so off we went to Toa Payoh!

it was freaking HOT okay...

got down from bike n received a msg from Lee

his mom getting him a new hp n a laptop

good for u =))

looked n asked around

Hmm...n i found out that

not many shops are carrying Oakley

even if they do, its all the old models of Oakley n its only one or two

there too, we found other brands with Oakley type of models

like P.O.L.I.C.E. n RUDY PROJECT

ever heard of em'?

never???!

then u're outdated dude

the thing i dont like abt P.O.L.I.C.E. is that

David Beckham was wearing it!

n that makes him d ambassador of P.O.L.I.C.E.

eargh, blueks!

n why i prefer RUDY PROJECT instead was because

it comes with a pair of clip on shades

cool huh? LOL

eh, i sound as if i'm the one getting the specs!

LOL nvm, whatever i like, Dad likes it too

n whatever Dad likes, i like it too!

say anything....

from motorbikes to specs to activites to ice cream to career

we have the same taste

hahas like father like daughter huh..

BUT

the only thing that doesnt goes along is that

he loves black but i love red

he likes mocha ice cream while i hate em' to e core!

hahaCks =D

Dad liked the RUDY PROJECT one which he saw

it has a nice batman-like frame

he looks fierce in it

COOL Dad! hahaCks

so now gt 2 choice

Oakley or RUDY PROJECT

he was obviously stuck ah

cos he liked em' both n so was i

so confusing ah

so we did some cooling down

ate ice-cream n walked around

haha, it was as if this was a so damn BIG thing lor..

need to choose so carefully

of course la!

we're talking abt spending $450 on a pair of specs for goodness's sake!!

LOL

it was so tough a decision to make that he stared n me n i stared at him

could see Dad frowning n thinking so hard ah

ahaha

he even called his friend to get an opinion

since this friend of his who suggested him to get an Oakley specs

even his friend couldnt give him an exact ans

lol

so i say "Dad, just get RUDY PROJECT la.

I think Oakley is not as famous as before.

More shops offering RUDY PROJECT than Oakley.

Plus, it has shades..."

i didnt know i was an easy influence to him

at that moment, we u-turned n went to get that RUDY PROJECT

HAHAHA

awesome...nice specs la Dad

TOO NICE lol

then time to head home

told Dad todrop by cwp awhile

need to get the earphones b4 i go for our Genting-KL trip

but i guess the weather wasnt on our side

cos as soon as we left Toa Payoh area,

it started torain heavily

SO SO SO heavily

Dad didnt have raincoat so we practically just drove in rain

n i tell u,

starting it was F-U-N la

so cool

but gradually as we enter the expressway n large trucks were everywhere

i felt scared la

cos 1stly,

it was a downpour n the raindrops were piercing my skin

2ndly,

it was cold

n Dad wasnt in a good condition to be in a cold cos

he had been coughing for a week alr

3rdly,

Dad didn have his specs on cos obviuosly he just broke it

n his eyesight is not that good too

n it was a risk he took

i wonder why he didnt stop under the bridges

he was driving so slowly

even i as a pillion rider who had an eye degree of 600+ couldnt see e road

what more Dad who only has a degree of 300

=_=" scary le..

but thank God

we reached home safely

drenched from neck bottom

i suddenly felt myself so heavy cos of my wet clothing

reached door step

Mom was open mouthed

LOL

shocked to see the state we were in

HAHA

sis, lil sisn lil bro were sort of jealous i got to play in d rain

on a motorbike

haha, what do kids know anyway??

OKOK

better get a rest now

dont wanna fall sick

otherwise cant go Genting-KL

hahaCks!

adios!~

now i have cool Dad

trendy n sporty specs

w a sporty bike

Luv u la!

OK ppl from Clementi are here
to send d travelling bag n whatever stuffs
me n sis left behind during our stay at Granny's

Too bad some of em' are not here
Syak n family are on a holiday trip at Bangkok
if they were here, confirm noisy
LOL

aites i gotta set d rable for dinner
adios!~

COOL!
i had F-U-N!!
my 2nd cycling trip w Lee
awesome!
the weather was d best la...
it was rainy

we were cycling when it drizzled
decided to take shelter at Civic
and as soon as we parked our bike, it rained heavily
what a close shave
n Mom called to check on me
*sigh*
forever on a 24 hr tight surveillance
=_="...

decided to sit for a drink at Civic's MacD
again, he paid for my drinks
when i can pay myself
n once again, there was a mini quarrel over who to pay
n as usual, the cashier girl was gigling away...
paisey nia
LOL

just as we lay our butts on d seat,
i saw Shikin coming in w a small kid
i smiled she smiled back
sweet nia..lol
i had this "i-didnt-know-u-have-a-lil-bro" look on my face
when Lee half-wittedly said "Maybe thats her child"
i choked on my drink ah!
LOL
thats my typical Lee, always shooting off
heehee

we kinda talked n stared at each other
i dont know why
but i wasnt my chatty self
maybe i was shy [???]
he has this habit of secretly snapping my pic
n when he did that just now, i looked so ugly cos i was staring in thin air
DELETE it Lee!!
but he was laughing away ah...=_="

he insisted on dashing thru the rain n walk ard in cwp
i didnt want cos i was in a slumpy attire LOL
but since there was nthg at Civic, i just followed him ah
walked ard
Christmas skit?? LOL nuisance nia

went up to Popular to check out for sis her earphones
there was this man entertaining kids at Popular's doorstep
making puppet ballons
Lee was trying to be funny by asking me to join lol
looked ard n went out
i was shocked when he grabbed my hand n raised it up
i was like WTH...haha
e man was asking for a volunteer n he volunteered me
nice try Lee

i was looking for an earpieve extension for my MP4 so he brought me up
clever nia he
he knows what i want
haha
again he wanted to buy me the wire but i said no need
he was good n listened to me =))

decided to head back home
met kamz outside KFC
my buddy! LOL
he's always talking on d phone la
with God knows who
haha he just got back from town
he managed to get a job at Hyatt Hotel
good for u!

i love the after rain weather!
there's pools of water n i love splashing on it w my bike
wee!~
hahaCks brought Lee to Woodgrove
where i told him abt the times i played there
nicee!
then came d best part
we were going downhill!
it was just SO nice to feel the after-rain breeze
hahaCks i love it la!

Mom asked me to collect her baking stuffs she ordered the other day
at Sembawang
left home at around 3+

i dont know why
but i just feel that i wanna give something to Lee
he was feeling kinda down
"bored" was his all time fav reason
cracked my head hard to think of smthg
finally came up w one
wont tell u guys what it is
LOL

took the initiative to personally go to his block to pass it to him
heehee
he was happy to see me n so was i =D
passed him d gift then went off
he wanted to send me home but i was in a rush to get home
so i took taxi

hope u're happy w the gift lee
=))

wah...
what a tiring day
i was on a long bus journey
one hour ah!
took 105 from granny Clementi hse to aunt's Serangoon hse
damn, sore butt nia...

went there to celebrate unc Roslan's bdae
well, it was a lame reason ah
cos the actual reason was to make thier daughter happy
DD simply loves bdae
doesnt matter whose bade it is, she'll always be d one blowing d candles
No shame! hahaCks..
ho wells, what does a 3 year old child know anyway...

the food there was awesome
i LOVED the cocktali....yum yum!
but too bad i couldnt ate much cos i was having a cough =_="

after eating, everybody talked n talked
n i hate it when i'm being the topic of discussion
STOP ASKING ME BOUT MY O's n
WHICH COUSRE I INTEND TO GO AFTER THIS!
Grr...i scared la
u're freaking me out!

okies i better doze off
finally i'm back at home after a week at granny's
MY BOLSTER!
AaAaAaaaHhhHHhh!!

i've been stuck at granny's for de past few days
overnight
quite boring also la...
sit there do nothing
practically did movie marathon
nice movies we watched
LOL
Lee missed me la
haha
glad i passed him de books alr
been declining his outings w me
not that i dont want to
but Mom jus wouldnt allow me to go out
GRrrr...
fancy a 16 yr old kid still having this kind of restrictions
GRRRRRR...

n & n...
i WANT A JOB!!!
i'm sick of rotting at home
JBP was a total disppoinment!
argh!..

OMG
omg omg omg



what was i thinking???
i rejected him for de 2nd time!
wad was i thinking sia??!!!
why?
why did i make such a foolish move??
DARN!
it was all because i was afraid
$&^@^%)(*!!


i'm really so sorry
i just cant bring myself to establish such a status
i dont know why
i'm really so foolish
its all so confusing n complicated
but u'll always be more than a friend to me

NP RED CAMP was awesome!!
30 Nov - 2 Dec
Everyday reported at 0830
but as usual, us being WDLers
we'll always be late
cos of some fools
haha

Hmm...
the 2 emcees were interesting
Zaid & Bryan
this Zaid when i first came, looks so familiar
he looks at me as if he knows me
n i look at him as if i know him
but we didnt approach one another
haha
to me he looks like one of my friend's bro but wasnt sure who
LOL
then it occured to me that maybe he is syahidah's bro
the girl whom i know since kindergarten
she was my classmate
but i quickly kicked away those assumptions
weell 1st impression of him - LAME
damn lame la w his jokes
but as days goes by, it becomes entertaining
cos if it wasnt for him, the whole camp would be dull
SooOo boring
haha

i fell in love with the FSV course ah
niceee!! interesting...
i just love the cams n stuffs...COOL

three days happenings is too much to type out
i'll give you the gheist of it when i dload the pics aites

*********************************


some sidetrack
i went to catch Casino Royale w Lee!!
hahaCks...he treated me to it
as usual, i was being a spolit market la
cough cough n cough
damn it la...
awesome gadgets
haha
n & n...
he gave me a baby pooh!!
n the coolest thing was-
it gas built in speakers!!
awesome! i LOVE it la
thanks lee <3

OK
its been only a few mins past 23 Nov 06
but nvm,
shall update bout my 23!
LOL
*23 is significant tho, its my birthdate!!*



actually early this morning
CT msg me
ask me go ECP
eh nono, not this morning
last morning
but i declined cos the day b4 went cycling edi w Lee
n also wanted to spend time at home with family
well, a family of 4 only
small sis n bro at granny's
that leaves us with Dad Mom Me n Sis
heaven ah!!!

so since Dad was on leave,
decided to go out lar
where to? where to??
that was on our lips since breakfast
12+ made our way to ViVoCity!

went to HarbourFront first
cos i wanna go BIG to search for an MP3
they had a sale on this LEMON MP4
selling at $89.90 for 1GB
hesitated for awhile

then proceeded to ViVoCity
whoa! it was so damn big
checked ot layest hps
Nokia 7390
SE W710i
SE Z610i
cool!
meddled w Xbox 360 n PSP
Geras of War
silly i should say
whats so great abt running ard in jungles
the graphics n effects were nice though

the cost of chocs there-
at this particular outlet
were outrageous!
KitKat selling at $16??! wth..
but that place was heaven
filled with plenty of sweets
yum yum lolx

looking at those sweets n chocs ,made us sooo hungry
so Dad decided to go Giant to get something
didnt really wanna have a proper meal cos later
gonna meet Mom to have dinner
BUT
even before we reached Giant
we were already indulging ourselves in some good ice cream
Ben&Jerry's Ice Cream was simply heaven!!

after that,
went to check out the pool at the top floor
gawd!
the sun was SOO bright that we can hardly open our eyes!
it wasnt scorching though

the water was murky
eeewwwww......
imagine;
toddlers entering the pool with their filled pampers
plus the rain the day before
blueks!
n kids were like soaking in the knee-length water???!
gosh...
me n sis still wanted to get a feel being in the water
hahaha
so we find an isolate spot
with ankle length water


at 1700hrs
went down to Orchard to meet Mom
Far East we went
showed Mom the clothe i wanted
not worth it so looked at other place
Sis got a dress instead

Brought em to the Indonesian restaurant which
me n my frens went the other day
Mom tried ikan lele
Dad n Sis had ayam penyet
i had gado-gado
couldnt finish it cos it was soooo damn sweet!
almost puked
eeewww....

then shopped ard
i was ecstatic cos i got the clothe i want!
a rose curduroy "jacket"!
wohooo!~
hahaCks

walked, shopped n camwhored
suddenly recalled the time when there were only 4 of us
walking through the night
down Orchard
when was that? 12-11 years ago??
LOL

everyone was tired so sat at PS's MacD
had a drink
n thats where my sore throat started
eragh, its so irritating now
Grrr...

ok, time to doze off now
leave ya to the pics

HAIL ALL EX-ADPians 1997-2002!!!
we had pure F-U-N just now
weeee!!~
finally, we're re-united i'm so so so happy!
after 4 years!

Kamz was being an idiot
he didnt tell me he changed his no.
he sms-ed me telling me not to be late
i seriously thought it was Nis
cos the way the sms was typed,
it sounded like a chat w Nis
so i happily returned his msg
n some time after that only he told me that
he's an only guy waiting
i was like: Guy?? isnt it Nis??
i only came to figure out it was Kamz
by the msg of the last sentence with his fav word in it
Darn him
Nice joke Kamz

Met at CHEERS admiralty MRT at 1500
Rad, Sa n Kamz was there didnt
saw Nis cos she was wandering ard
she came near me
n the words that came out of her mouth was
"Who r u? U who?"
i was so shocked
she didnt recognize me
Gawd!!
bla bla bla

headed to Zaf's
i guess it was a blessing for zafira to have an open house
i got to know how many ppl can actually remember me
n not many did!
Grr...
they can remember others but they cant remember me!
hmph!...
was there a drastic change in me?? Hmm...

i was so glad to see those monkeys
we recalled the times we played,
recalled the times we played tricks n tried being mischievious
it was such wonderful memories- childhood memories


so whats a gathering without pictures???

Babes of the Day

Squeeze all 11!
wani, why hair only??!

BIG boys n girls now
















Front: Rad, Rad, Nad
Back: Sa n Kam
[from left]


















we were being foolish









\


LUV Y'ALL!!

went to get award bursary
given by dad's workplace

someone woke up on de wrong side of bed
n it caused us bad luck
some sort ah

me Dad n Sis
went to fecth lil bro n sis at granny's
quite late alr
reached Jurong MRT
n it was raining super heavily
if we carried on with train to Granny's
we'd be drenched cos no shelter
to Granny's flat

so decided to call Granny n ask what bus to take to her home
dialled n dialled
no one picked up
weird
called aunt n ask anybody home
n she said yes but unfortunately phone was spoilt
she also didnt know what bus to Granny's
we were running late by then
called cuzzie n thank god he knows
waited n waited
till the rain stopped
Dad was alr cursing saying we should have just took the MRT instead
it could have been faster cos
what if the bus we were abt to take suddenly takes a long route???
n how damn true it was...

lil sis n bro quickly got changed
but by then, we were so so late
Dad had decided to meet up his friend-cum-colleague for prayers
so his daughter was left with me to babysit
darn...

registered at 1400hrs
ceremony started at 1530hrs
so long sia i wait...
huge amount given i should say
in total, $230,000 given away
to 181 applicants' children

after that headed to Sim Lim
at last,
i got an 1GB MP4
at $80 + 2 silicon case + i pouch
cool!~

***************************************


Lee,
last night was bad
i was tired
n didnt really had the energy to entertain to u
thinking bout u n msi
puts me in a spot
well, i guess u were a newbie in this
so u didnt really know how to react
n when u reacted wrongly, it kinda pissed me
but hey,
i dont blame u
its ok
but
the way u made ur move,
was so so so unprofessional
u didnt sound confident- AT ALL
its not that i didnt want to give u an ans
but i was too worn out to think how/what to answer

ouch
my butt is sore
my legs are aching

the result of-
cycling
lol
lame yah

long time nvr cycle
hmm...
when was the last time i cycled??
errr....
June hols? at Ubin

sms-ed aini
asked whether she free so can go cycling
but she replied
saying she was at training ground
darn..

was at the bicycle shop
when Lee decided to tag along
waited n waited
but he was nowhere in sight
n & n later
he turned up with cuts n bruises!
darn...
what was he doing/thinking???!
i guessed the hurt i caused him wasnt evident enuff
=(

this time i cycled from home to...
woodlands north jetty
OK fine Lee!
i've never been there ok
but still nice of you to bring me there
haha

*ouch, cant sit long la. it hurts*

pity Lee la
he had to go slow coz of me
stupid NuruL, spoil market

Siti sms-ed me for the brownies recipe
Hmm...i guess my mom's brownies are great
lol
she wanted to bake it for tmr's outing
4A n 4B having a cycling trip to ECP tmr?
*cycling? AGAIN?*
i told her i cant promise
cos i jus got back from a dreadful cycling "trip"
n am afraid i cant walk tmr lol
n it looks like it

after that headed to buy bubble tea
OK fine
we were being childish
quarrelling infront of the uncle over who should pay for the drinks
n ended up me paying
wee!~
haha, i won
lol

headed home at 1830hrs
he went for his ngaji
boys will always make do with what they have
ya, he went for ngaji- sweating
i dont know how
but he did it
LoL


But in all,
a nice trip
=))
thanks










this trip was actually to
make up for the bad things i did to ya

OK this is bad
this is bad
this is real bad

i cant believe i'm blogging at this time
i just couldnt hold it any longer
i had to blurt it out
so yah, here i am
blogging at this hour

i couldnt sleep
i kept tossing n turning
tossing n turning
but i just COULDNT sleep!




i just felt bad
real bad
what am i feeling bad about??
i dont know
There's just so many things that i feel bad abt


i feel bad for making him feel that way
it caused a sudden mood change in him
and it really troubles me on how he's really feeling
Is he hating me?
Is hatred growing in him towards me?
Does he suddenly feel like giving up on me?
Is he starting to keep a distant away from me?
What have i done to him?
AaarRrGghHh!!!...
stupid me
stupid, stupid!

HE said
"still suffering in silence now"
izzit my fault that u're suffering?
Damn it la...

But hey, i'm doing him a favour
i've been hinting him
but dunno le...
its either he didnt get it
or
he's just turning oblivious towards it


the great Alex once said
"Its the boy that makes the move
but
its the girl that makes a relationship happen"
well, i'm making it happen
Are you making ur move??

i dont wanna be like...
like what the malay proverb says
"bagai perigi mencari timba"
its just against me


It was weird
suddenly only
he asked me to forgive him for his mistakes
suddenly you know -
out of the blue
i was like huh? what mistakes?

Ho wells...
if u think u have committed a mistake
n i that is what ur definition of a mistake is
then fine, i'll forgive you for that
But as far as i am concerned,
ypu've done nothing seriously wrong to me
except heartaches during our conversations
n thats normal to me
=))


but now LEE,
i guess its truly n only right of me to seek ur forgiveness
coz i reallt think i hust u lots
my words were harsh
n it hurt you, i know
forgive me
will you?

its ok if u cant forgive me
cos i know i'm in the wrong
n de pain i've caused u will not heal enuff with me only apologizing
=(













TIME is the key

cool!
first day after Os,
i'm already going out
haha

Nisa had her open hse
went there w Dian n Fana
met at 1130
obviously we were the 1st to arrive
ate ate n ate
we three daras didnt have our
breakfast so we had
BRUNCH instead
lol

hang around till 2
we camwhored like nobody's business
mann..
trying to get 4 daras in a pic
was a real tough job
i think we took close to ard 50 pics
for an hour
gosh...
we climbed on her bed
squeeze on her wooden sofa
crazy ppl la!
lol
but we had REAL fun
haha

then met wawa
off we went to town
wawa met her mom at lucky plaza
cant believe i ate again
wawa gave us a treat since her mom working there
nasi ayam kepak penyet
waduhh...
gue kenyang banget sih!
time to loose weight
*will working help me shed some weight?*
lol

camwhored at the indonesian restaurant again
haha, cool to have a cam ya know
walked around town
window shopped at far east
cool stuffs there
i think i going there afain la
some stuffs interests me
lol

was window shopped when Bon called
i'm so happy to be hearing his voice!
mann...
i miss his antics w us

but then again,
i need money to shop!
Grr...
enjoy 1st ah
going back JBP next wk
to apply for job
pray hard i get it aitess!







i cant stay jobless for long
Dad, found a place where i can be
a Camp instructor alr or not??

okay...
this is freaky

ppl have been asking who's him
n he also got swarmed by his ppl asking who's her

how long is this gonna go on??
God knows
much of it rely on him
i wont be telling anyone who he is
until a fact states that we're together







dont call me ur girl till i really am

wooots!~
end of Os
means end of sec sch life too!
wohoo!...
gawd
i cant believe its all OVER
soooo over

i mean,
a few months back
i was struggling like mad
study study study
nervous n scared -
when the day came

but tonight
i cant believe i dont have to flip any pages
n above all
dont have to
worry bout tomr!

dad called for a celebration
so off we went to Ramen Ten at AMK
wanted to try it out
but
nothing much le...
my unagi not available
=((
& n &...
now i can coop myself up in the room
n finish reading the Jodi Picoult book
which i've always wanted to buy
n finish reading it
within hours
and now that i dont have to worry bout tmr
i vcan jus forget about the world
and indulge myself in some good stories
lolx..

**********

D&T???
gosh...
was hard la
all these while mr zainal set paper so easy
then come O level
it was tough
BUT manageable
u ask me how to make GRP???
lucky i read up on it that few hrs before paper starts
my teacher never even teach sia
lolx...
must feedback my teacher
ask him to increase the standard of paper he set
haha

overall,
i'm glad its over
such a relief








now i can do things
i never got to do

Grrr...
I'm hating it
I'm hating it
I'm hating it!!!
AaaRrgGhh...!
Why i so gatal go n sign up online???
See la what happen now
GRRR!!

How i wish i can choose not to go
Coz if i did,
then i'll have to pay up $100 for skipping it

LOST??
well, Dad got home n handed me this parcel from NP
its that stupid RED Camp la

Hey


there's this song that keeps on playing in my mind

OK la. not song
but phrase

"where'd you go
i miss you so..."

It is no doubt that i dislike the genre of that song
But weird
Somehow, it just keeps on playing
Maybe its him
Or am i just thinking too much??









Am i missing him???

Guiltiness grips my soul whenever
i dont live up to what i say
And
see other ppl suffer due to my act of neglect


I dont know why but i'm always in denial
What am i?
Too afraid to face up to reality?
Too afraid to face the truth?
Why am i always running away?
Am i pushing my luck too far??


Its because of this denial thingy;
this act of not wanting to say e truth
that makes him suffer
i know he is -
suffering in silence
N Lee,
Remember the time when u once asked
"Do you have any feelings on me?"
n my stupid reply was
"NO i guess."
yea i know
it was stupid
But Lee,
the truth is
i wanted to say
"Yeah. A lil bit. lol"
But somehow
this small brain of mine
just refuse to -
refuse to send the signal to my lil fingers
to type those words









The way u feel towards me
is the feelings i have for u

It was a coincident that i met kamz in sch today
n I was glad we did
cos otherwise i'd be bored to detah
doing self study alone

was with him from 10-2
studied n had lunch with him n Oska
it was during lunch that we knew more of each other

it was sad listening to his side of the story
all these while, i had been in the wrong
for listening to others n judging gim by what others say
but without listening to what the ownder has to say

his,
was a story
Full of Misunderstandings
it was good that we cleared the air
cos otherwise,
we'd leave each other with bad impressions
i dont know how
but somehow we just managed to gather up courage to open up
i mean,
we've been together for the past 7 years
but nothing really grew out of it
except revenge n hard feelings
=((

But now that i know it
i shant blame him if future incidents repeats the past

Ho wells...
but hey Kamz
let me just apologise to you for my past bad deeds
i truly am
i repent and
i vow to know you better
my sincere apologies
from the bottom of my heart
aitess?
*afterall, its not too late to apologise right?
coz we're still in the Raya month"
LoL


But u know what Kamz??
Out of so many boys.
u're the one i've been the MOST tolerant with
so that makes me ur best buddy
right???
lolx...

i dont know how i can make him feel secured

he's sweet
his choice of words
puts a smile on my face

great knowing him
=D
he's cool

So yah...
things have been going on between us
but not yet to that stage
just discovering more of one another

But...
it kinds of irritates me
most
when he doesnt seem to open up
he wants to know a hell lot abt me
but when i qn him a lil
he'll tend to keep quiet
n says he dun wanna tell
haiZz
fine, it takes time
i know
a hell lot of a time

his is a special case
i gotta be extra double patient with him
so yah,
time will tell


adios!!~~

i asked:
"Tell me, what is one thing u hate??"

HE said:
"i hate a girl who i like then she likes other guys"

i think its kinda unfair
i mean
how long do i have to wait for u to make a move
i've waited more than 6 mths already
but yet, u kept mum

so many ppl come n go within that time period
i get to know so many other guys
n make frens...

u didnt make urself clear
how was i suppose to know??
n now u tell me that?

tell me ppl,
how should i ans him??

Damn!!
Chem sux big timedude...
i hate Chem!
SS not so bad

3 papers down
7 more to go

just after 3 papers
i just feel that i'm a great letdown
eargh
it sucks!!
i somehow foresee myself in "Its The End"
oh God, pls tell me its not true
wake up NuruL, WAKE UP!!

been missing for quite some time now
didnt have the luxury of time to update
been at the lib daily from 11-5
had sch today so i decided not to go lib

sch today was a total waste of my time
it was supposed to be a form of consultation
come, ask, clarify ur doubts
n it ended with me asking only 2 questions
n it wasnt answered by the teacher who had this class
this teacher was happily chit chatting n cracking jokes with his fav students
wth!...

so i've decided not to come for his class tmr
gonna skip it
we're just wasting each others' time
n i aint got time for such shit

welcome!!

thats it! English. English is the lingua franca in many countries.

well, my english is not really good so i would really appreciate if u could pardon me for my broken english. lets just learn from each other n cover up for one another aites....LoLx

i have actually decided to open up another bloggie cos i feel that my first weblog is kinda rojak. its a mixed of malay n english entries. not really nice.

so now i have two separate bolgs in two different languages. anakWatanMelayu is obviously gonna be in malay while this linguafranca is gonna be in English.

i dont wanna delete off my anakWatanMelayu.blogspot.com cos it means alot o me. REAL alot. that blog was actually made for a competition organised by IJC. it was my first time blogging so i put in lotsa effort to make it look good. n praises to God, i won the Best Language(Malay) for that competition. that was like a year and a half ago?? whoa! hahaCks..

so i hope my other bloggers acknowledge that aites. thanks

OK ppl from Clementi are here
to send d travelling bag n whatever stuffs
me n sis left behind during our stay at Granny's

Too bad some of em' are not here
Syak n family are on a holiday trip at Bangkok
if they were here, confirm noisy
LOL

aites i gotta set d rable for dinner
adios!~

COOL!
i had F-U-N!!
my 2nd cycling trip w Lee
awesome!
the weather was d best la...
it was rainy

we were cycling when it drizzled
decided to take shelter at Civic
and as soon as we parked our bike, it rained heavily
what a close shave
n Mom called to check on me
*sigh*
forever on a 24 hr tight surveillance
=_="...

decided to sit for a drink at Civic's MacD
again, he paid for my drinks
when i can pay myself
n once again, there was a mini quarrel over who to pay
n as usual, the cashier girl was gigling away...
paisey nia
LOL

just as we lay our butts on d seat,
i saw Shikin coming in w a small kid
i smiled she smiled back
sweet nia..lol
i had this "i-didnt-know-u-have-a-lil-bro" look on my face
when Lee half-wittedly said "Maybe thats her child"
i choked on my drink ah!
LOL
thats my typical Lee, always shooting off
heehee

we kinda talked n stared at each other
i dont know why
but i wasnt my chatty self
maybe i was shy [???]
he has this habit of secretly snapping my pic
n when he did that just now, i looked so ugly cos i was staring in thin air
DELETE it Lee!!
but he was laughing away ah...=_="

he insisted on dashing thru the rain n walk ard in cwp
i didnt want cos i was in a slumpy attire LOL
but since there was nthg at Civic, i just followed him ah
walked ard
Christmas skit?? LOL nuisance nia

went up to Popular to check out for sis her earphones
there was this man entertaining kids at Popular's doorstep
making puppet ballons
Lee was trying to be funny by asking me to join lol
looked ard n went out
i was shocked when he grabbed my hand n raised it up
i was like WTH...haha
e man was asking for a volunteer n he volunteered me
nice try Lee

i was looking for an earpieve extension for my MP4 so he brought me up
clever nia he
he knows what i want
haha
again he wanted to buy me the wire but i said no need
he was good n listened to me =))

decided to head back home
met kamz outside KFC
my buddy! LOL
he's always talking on d phone la
with God knows who
haha he just got back from town
he managed to get a job at Hyatt Hotel
good for u!

i love the after rain weather!
there's pools of water n i love splashing on it w my bike
wee!~
hahaCks brought Lee to Woodgrove
where i told him abt the times i played there
nicee!
then came d best part
we were going downhill!
it was just SO nice to feel the after-rain breeze
hahaCks i love it la!

Mom asked me to collect her baking stuffs she ordered the other day
at Sembawang
left home at around 3+

i dont know why
but i just feel that i wanna give something to Lee
he was feeling kinda down
"bored" was his all time fav reason
cracked my head hard to think of smthg
finally came up w one
wont tell u guys what it is
LOL

took the initiative to personally go to his block to pass it to him
heehee
he was happy to see me n so was i =D
passed him d gift then went off
he wanted to send me home but i was in a rush to get home
so i took taxi

hope u're happy w the gift lee
=))