i woke up this morning feeling very disheartened
why in de world did i wake up?
how come i'm living to this day?

i woke up this morning with a very heavy heart
it feels as if i've been punched real hard in the heart
my heart feels dented, very dented
not yet smashed
my left chest feels heavy
only my left
i walk around with my left side of the body downwards

i woke up this morning with thousands of regrets
why did i live yesterday?
why did i live just to commit mistakes?
or why did i live yesterday just to be mocked at?

is work taking its effect on me?
no. i dont think so. absolutely NOT
cos i'm enjoying a hell of a time there

then what? izzit this new thing thats happening?
never was i deeply engrossed in this matter
but now that i do, n its the first time i'm facing it for real n seriously,
it doesnt seem to turn out nice, smooth n beautiful
what the hell...

let it go? loser.
i never admit defeat easily
life has been meaningful with this thing
but its beginning to hurt
if i let it go, it hurts even worst
so what now? it hurts in both ways

i wish to end my life now
can i?
pleeaasseee....