OK
its been only a few mins past 23 Nov 06
but nvm,
shall update bout my 23!
LOL
*23 is significant tho, its my birthdate!!*



actually early this morning
CT msg me
ask me go ECP
eh nono, not this morning
last morning
but i declined cos the day b4 went cycling edi w Lee
n also wanted to spend time at home with family
well, a family of 4 only
small sis n bro at granny's
that leaves us with Dad Mom Me n Sis
heaven ah!!!

so since Dad was on leave,
decided to go out lar
where to? where to??
that was on our lips since breakfast
12+ made our way to ViVoCity!

went to HarbourFront first
cos i wanna go BIG to search for an MP3
they had a sale on this LEMON MP4
selling at $89.90 for 1GB
hesitated for awhile

then proceeded to ViVoCity
whoa! it was so damn big
checked ot layest hps
Nokia 7390
SE W710i
SE Z610i
cool!
meddled w Xbox 360 n PSP
Geras of War
silly i should say
whats so great abt running ard in jungles
the graphics n effects were nice though

the cost of chocs there-
at this particular outlet
were outrageous!
KitKat selling at $16??! wth..
but that place was heaven
filled with plenty of sweets
yum yum lolx

looking at those sweets n chocs ,made us sooo hungry
so Dad decided to go Giant to get something
didnt really wanna have a proper meal cos later
gonna meet Mom to have dinner
BUT
even before we reached Giant
we were already indulging ourselves in some good ice cream
Ben&Jerry's Ice Cream was simply heaven!!

after that,
went to check out the pool at the top floor
gawd!
the sun was SOO bright that we can hardly open our eyes!
it wasnt scorching though

the water was murky
eeewwwww......
imagine;
toddlers entering the pool with their filled pampers
plus the rain the day before
blueks!
n kids were like soaking in the knee-length water???!
gosh...
me n sis still wanted to get a feel being in the water
hahaha
so we find an isolate spot
with ankle length water


at 1700hrs
went down to Orchard to meet Mom
Far East we went
showed Mom the clothe i wanted
not worth it so looked at other place
Sis got a dress instead

Brought em to the Indonesian restaurant which
me n my frens went the other day
Mom tried ikan lele
Dad n Sis had ayam penyet
i had gado-gado
couldnt finish it cos it was soooo damn sweet!
almost puked
eeewww....

then shopped ard
i was ecstatic cos i got the clothe i want!
a rose curduroy "jacket"!
wohooo!~
hahaCks

walked, shopped n camwhored
suddenly recalled the time when there were only 4 of us
walking through the night
down Orchard
when was that? 12-11 years ago??
LOL

everyone was tired so sat at PS's MacD
had a drink
n thats where my sore throat started
eragh, its so irritating now
Grrr...

ok, time to doze off now
leave ya to the pics

HAIL ALL EX-ADPians 1997-2002!!!
we had pure F-U-N just now
weeee!!~
finally, we're re-united i'm so so so happy!
after 4 years!

Kamz was being an idiot
he didnt tell me he changed his no.
he sms-ed me telling me not to be late
i seriously thought it was Nis
cos the way the sms was typed,
it sounded like a chat w Nis
so i happily returned his msg
n some time after that only he told me that
he's an only guy waiting
i was like: Guy?? isnt it Nis??
i only came to figure out it was Kamz
by the msg of the last sentence with his fav word in it
Darn him
Nice joke Kamz

Met at CHEERS admiralty MRT at 1500
Rad, Sa n Kamz was there didnt
saw Nis cos she was wandering ard
she came near me
n the words that came out of her mouth was
"Who r u? U who?"
i was so shocked
she didnt recognize me
Gawd!!
bla bla bla

headed to Zaf's
i guess it was a blessing for zafira to have an open house
i got to know how many ppl can actually remember me
n not many did!
Grr...
they can remember others but they cant remember me!
hmph!...
was there a drastic change in me?? Hmm...

i was so glad to see those monkeys
we recalled the times we played,
recalled the times we played tricks n tried being mischievious
it was such wonderful memories- childhood memories


so whats a gathering without pictures???

Babes of the Day

Squeeze all 11!
wani, why hair only??!

BIG boys n girls now
















Front: Rad, Rad, Nad
Back: Sa n Kam
[from left]


















we were being foolish









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LUV Y'ALL!!

went to get award bursary
given by dad's workplace

someone woke up on de wrong side of bed
n it caused us bad luck
some sort ah

me Dad n Sis
went to fecth lil bro n sis at granny's
quite late alr
reached Jurong MRT
n it was raining super heavily
if we carried on with train to Granny's
we'd be drenched cos no shelter
to Granny's flat

so decided to call Granny n ask what bus to take to her home
dialled n dialled
no one picked up
weird
called aunt n ask anybody home
n she said yes but unfortunately phone was spoilt
she also didnt know what bus to Granny's
we were running late by then
called cuzzie n thank god he knows
waited n waited
till the rain stopped
Dad was alr cursing saying we should have just took the MRT instead
it could have been faster cos
what if the bus we were abt to take suddenly takes a long route???
n how damn true it was...

lil sis n bro quickly got changed
but by then, we were so so late
Dad had decided to meet up his friend-cum-colleague for prayers
so his daughter was left with me to babysit
darn...

registered at 1400hrs
ceremony started at 1530hrs
so long sia i wait...
huge amount given i should say
in total, $230,000 given away
to 181 applicants' children

after that headed to Sim Lim
at last,
i got an 1GB MP4
at $80 + 2 silicon case + i pouch
cool!~

***************************************


Lee,
last night was bad
i was tired
n didnt really had the energy to entertain to u
thinking bout u n msi
puts me in a spot
well, i guess u were a newbie in this
so u didnt really know how to react
n when u reacted wrongly, it kinda pissed me
but hey,
i dont blame u
its ok
but
the way u made ur move,
was so so so unprofessional
u didnt sound confident- AT ALL
its not that i didnt want to give u an ans
but i was too worn out to think how/what to answer

ouch
my butt is sore
my legs are aching

the result of-
cycling
lol
lame yah

long time nvr cycle
hmm...
when was the last time i cycled??
errr....
June hols? at Ubin

sms-ed aini
asked whether she free so can go cycling
but she replied
saying she was at training ground
darn..

was at the bicycle shop
when Lee decided to tag along
waited n waited
but he was nowhere in sight
n & n later
he turned up with cuts n bruises!
darn...
what was he doing/thinking???!
i guessed the hurt i caused him wasnt evident enuff
=(

this time i cycled from home to...
woodlands north jetty
OK fine Lee!
i've never been there ok
but still nice of you to bring me there
haha

*ouch, cant sit long la. it hurts*

pity Lee la
he had to go slow coz of me
stupid NuruL, spoil market

Siti sms-ed me for the brownies recipe
Hmm...i guess my mom's brownies are great
lol
she wanted to bake it for tmr's outing
4A n 4B having a cycling trip to ECP tmr?
*cycling? AGAIN?*
i told her i cant promise
cos i jus got back from a dreadful cycling "trip"
n am afraid i cant walk tmr lol
n it looks like it

after that headed to buy bubble tea
OK fine
we were being childish
quarrelling infront of the uncle over who should pay for the drinks
n ended up me paying
wee!~
haha, i won
lol

headed home at 1830hrs
he went for his ngaji
boys will always make do with what they have
ya, he went for ngaji- sweating
i dont know how
but he did it
LoL


But in all,
a nice trip
=))
thanks










this trip was actually to
make up for the bad things i did to ya

OK this is bad
this is bad
this is real bad

i cant believe i'm blogging at this time
i just couldnt hold it any longer
i had to blurt it out
so yah, here i am
blogging at this hour

i couldnt sleep
i kept tossing n turning
tossing n turning
but i just COULDNT sleep!




i just felt bad
real bad
what am i feeling bad about??
i dont know
There's just so many things that i feel bad abt


i feel bad for making him feel that way
it caused a sudden mood change in him
and it really troubles me on how he's really feeling
Is he hating me?
Is hatred growing in him towards me?
Does he suddenly feel like giving up on me?
Is he starting to keep a distant away from me?
What have i done to him?
AaarRrGghHh!!!...
stupid me
stupid, stupid!

HE said
"still suffering in silence now"
izzit my fault that u're suffering?
Damn it la...

But hey, i'm doing him a favour
i've been hinting him
but dunno le...
its either he didnt get it
or
he's just turning oblivious towards it


the great Alex once said
"Its the boy that makes the move
but
its the girl that makes a relationship happen"
well, i'm making it happen
Are you making ur move??

i dont wanna be like...
like what the malay proverb says
"bagai perigi mencari timba"
its just against me


It was weird
suddenly only
he asked me to forgive him for his mistakes
suddenly you know -
out of the blue
i was like huh? what mistakes?

Ho wells...
if u think u have committed a mistake
n i that is what ur definition of a mistake is
then fine, i'll forgive you for that
But as far as i am concerned,
ypu've done nothing seriously wrong to me
except heartaches during our conversations
n thats normal to me
=))


but now LEE,
i guess its truly n only right of me to seek ur forgiveness
coz i reallt think i hust u lots
my words were harsh
n it hurt you, i know
forgive me
will you?

its ok if u cant forgive me
cos i know i'm in the wrong
n de pain i've caused u will not heal enuff with me only apologizing
=(













TIME is the key

cool!
first day after Os,
i'm already going out
haha

Nisa had her open hse
went there w Dian n Fana
met at 1130
obviously we were the 1st to arrive
ate ate n ate
we three daras didnt have our
breakfast so we had
BRUNCH instead
lol

hang around till 2
we camwhored like nobody's business
mann..
trying to get 4 daras in a pic
was a real tough job
i think we took close to ard 50 pics
for an hour
gosh...
we climbed on her bed
squeeze on her wooden sofa
crazy ppl la!
lol
but we had REAL fun
haha

then met wawa
off we went to town
wawa met her mom at lucky plaza
cant believe i ate again
wawa gave us a treat since her mom working there
nasi ayam kepak penyet
waduhh...
gue kenyang banget sih!
time to loose weight
*will working help me shed some weight?*
lol

camwhored at the indonesian restaurant again
haha, cool to have a cam ya know
walked around town
window shopped at far east
cool stuffs there
i think i going there afain la
some stuffs interests me
lol

was window shopped when Bon called
i'm so happy to be hearing his voice!
mann...
i miss his antics w us

but then again,
i need money to shop!
Grr...
enjoy 1st ah
going back JBP next wk
to apply for job
pray hard i get it aitess!







i cant stay jobless for long
Dad, found a place where i can be
a Camp instructor alr or not??

okay...
this is freaky

ppl have been asking who's him
n he also got swarmed by his ppl asking who's her

how long is this gonna go on??
God knows
much of it rely on him
i wont be telling anyone who he is
until a fact states that we're together







dont call me ur girl till i really am

wooots!~
end of Os
means end of sec sch life too!
wohoo!...
gawd
i cant believe its all OVER
soooo over

i mean,
a few months back
i was struggling like mad
study study study
nervous n scared -
when the day came

but tonight
i cant believe i dont have to flip any pages
n above all
dont have to
worry bout tomr!

dad called for a celebration
so off we went to Ramen Ten at AMK
wanted to try it out
but
nothing much le...
my unagi not available
=((
& n &...
now i can coop myself up in the room
n finish reading the Jodi Picoult book
which i've always wanted to buy
n finish reading it
within hours
and now that i dont have to worry bout tmr
i vcan jus forget about the world
and indulge myself in some good stories
lolx..

**********

D&T???
gosh...
was hard la
all these while mr zainal set paper so easy
then come O level
it was tough
BUT manageable
u ask me how to make GRP???
lucky i read up on it that few hrs before paper starts
my teacher never even teach sia
lolx...
must feedback my teacher
ask him to increase the standard of paper he set
haha

overall,
i'm glad its over
such a relief








now i can do things
i never got to do

Grrr...
I'm hating it
I'm hating it
I'm hating it!!!
AaaRrgGhh...!
Why i so gatal go n sign up online???
See la what happen now
GRRR!!

How i wish i can choose not to go
Coz if i did,
then i'll have to pay up $100 for skipping it

LOST??
well, Dad got home n handed me this parcel from NP
its that stupid RED Camp la

Hey


there's this song that keeps on playing in my mind

OK la. not song
but phrase

"where'd you go
i miss you so..."

It is no doubt that i dislike the genre of that song
But weird
Somehow, it just keeps on playing
Maybe its him
Or am i just thinking too much??









Am i missing him???

Guiltiness grips my soul whenever
i dont live up to what i say
And
see other ppl suffer due to my act of neglect


I dont know why but i'm always in denial
What am i?
Too afraid to face up to reality?
Too afraid to face the truth?
Why am i always running away?
Am i pushing my luck too far??


Its because of this denial thingy;
this act of not wanting to say e truth
that makes him suffer
i know he is -
suffering in silence
N Lee,
Remember the time when u once asked
"Do you have any feelings on me?"
n my stupid reply was
"NO i guess."
yea i know
it was stupid
But Lee,
the truth is
i wanted to say
"Yeah. A lil bit. lol"
But somehow
this small brain of mine
just refuse to -
refuse to send the signal to my lil fingers
to type those words









The way u feel towards me
is the feelings i have for u

It was a coincident that i met kamz in sch today
n I was glad we did
cos otherwise i'd be bored to detah
doing self study alone

was with him from 10-2
studied n had lunch with him n Oska
it was during lunch that we knew more of each other

it was sad listening to his side of the story
all these while, i had been in the wrong
for listening to others n judging gim by what others say
but without listening to what the ownder has to say

his,
was a story
Full of Misunderstandings
it was good that we cleared the air
cos otherwise,
we'd leave each other with bad impressions
i dont know how
but somehow we just managed to gather up courage to open up
i mean,
we've been together for the past 7 years
but nothing really grew out of it
except revenge n hard feelings
=((

But now that i know it
i shant blame him if future incidents repeats the past

Ho wells...
but hey Kamz
let me just apologise to you for my past bad deeds
i truly am
i repent and
i vow to know you better
my sincere apologies
from the bottom of my heart
aitess?
*afterall, its not too late to apologise right?
coz we're still in the Raya month"
LoL


But u know what Kamz??
Out of so many boys.
u're the one i've been the MOST tolerant with
so that makes me ur best buddy
right???
lolx...

i dont know how i can make him feel secured

he's sweet
his choice of words
puts a smile on my face

great knowing him
=D
he's cool

So yah...
things have been going on between us
but not yet to that stage
just discovering more of one another

But...
it kinds of irritates me
most
when he doesnt seem to open up
he wants to know a hell lot abt me
but when i qn him a lil
he'll tend to keep quiet
n says he dun wanna tell
haiZz
fine, it takes time
i know
a hell lot of a time

his is a special case
i gotta be extra double patient with him
so yah,
time will tell


adios!!~~

i asked:
"Tell me, what is one thing u hate??"

HE said:
"i hate a girl who i like then she likes other guys"

i think its kinda unfair
i mean
how long do i have to wait for u to make a move
i've waited more than 6 mths already
but yet, u kept mum

so many ppl come n go within that time period
i get to know so many other guys
n make frens...

u didnt make urself clear
how was i suppose to know??
n now u tell me that?

tell me ppl,
how should i ans him??

Damn!!
Chem sux big timedude...
i hate Chem!
SS not so bad

3 papers down
7 more to go

just after 3 papers
i just feel that i'm a great letdown
eargh
it sucks!!
i somehow foresee myself in "Its The End"
oh God, pls tell me its not true
wake up NuruL, WAKE UP!!

been missing for quite some time now
didnt have the luxury of time to update
been at the lib daily from 11-5
had sch today so i decided not to go lib

sch today was a total waste of my time
it was supposed to be a form of consultation
come, ask, clarify ur doubts
n it ended with me asking only 2 questions
n it wasnt answered by the teacher who had this class
this teacher was happily chit chatting n cracking jokes with his fav students
wth!...

so i've decided not to come for his class tmr
gonna skip it
we're just wasting each others' time
n i aint got time for such shit